i guess i'm in the mood to complain

So I will say sorry right up front. I guess things have been bothering me a lot lately, but even I know that they aren't that bad, so I really shouldn't be complaining, but at the same time, i just feel like theres a bunch of stuff that adding up and i'm just a bit annoyed.

Nov 17th
I guess i'll start with the 17th. My sister called me at 2am, and I had been spending the night with Will. we were supposed to go up to his grams and go hunting. no, not that I could actually kill an animal, but i just wanted some time away with Will. so i get the call from my sis and will tells me to go back to bed, cause she's probably drunk. While this was partly true, she was drunk, she was calling to tell me that bether (her youngest) was having her baby. Erika was really upset cause she was still in florida, and they weren't supposed to come up till the following week. so she was fresking out and what was I supposed to do? I had to talk to her and comfort her. we talked for a few hours, me telling her everything would be okay. she bought a plane ticket, and her flight was leaving at 8. so I of course cancel my plans with will for our weekend away, and I drive to the airport to pick up my sister at 10. her flight was delayed, but she finally got here at noon. so i then drive her to Sturgis on the other side of the state to see her granddaughter. btw, bether had the baby while erika was still in the airplane. sucky that she wasn't there for it. so we spend the whole day at the hospital. check into a hotel that night and finally got a little sleep.

Nov 18th
spend most of Sunday at the hospital too. we went to meet my other neice Seton for lunch, and she tells us that she wants to move back home with me. umm....ok. ma of course is exstatic about the idea. she loves taking care of people. So gary (erika's hubby) drives up from florida, and stays with erika, so she's not alone, so i decide to go home. it's sunday, i'm exhausted, and i just wanna go home. we get home and will meets us there (Yay!) and helps us unpack all of setons stuff, fixes the TV so she has cable in her room, and i get to see him for a few minutes at least, even if it is with someone else there too.

Nov 19th
Monday I had the day off work (seeing as how it was supposed to be a vacation with Will.) so i was able to get seton all settled in. I hung out with her all day, and cooked for her all day. She's pregnant, 19, and due in April, so I have to make sure she eats right. then had girl scouts with mak. got home, cooked dinner, did makies homework with her, played with her, talked to ma a bit, and crashed.

Nov 20th
Tuesday I had work, which i was actually excited about. getting out of the house and everything. i felt kind of bad about leaving Seton alone all day though. So I pick up mak from school, and make dinner, help her with her homework, read with her, and by then my sister had driven over from sturgis to spend the remainder of her time with us. So then it was hanging out with her, and gary, ma, seton, mak, and me. makie saying she's bored and wants to play games, seton saying the same thing. ok, ballet time! so I take makie to ballet, which gave me an hour to talk to Will, which was needed. it had already been a very long and stressful week, and it's only tuesday. get home from ballet, and end up staying up till 11, which is fine for most, but i get up at 430 in the morning.

Nov 21st
Wake up exhausted. great way to start the day. oh well, i had a two day work week, can't really complain, plus to top it off, my boss wasn't at work, which always makes things better. so I work all day, then i'm supposed to pick up makie from school. i get halfway there, and scott calls to tell me he got out of work early, and he's gonna go pick her up. super, could he have possibly told me that before I drove an hour out of my way? oh well, so i call will and tell him I'm coming to his house for an hour of non family time. I love my family, but there's only so much you can take at once. So we hang out for a whole whopping hour, and then he comes over to my house with me. I help cook dinner, we all eat, then we play uno, which was pretty fun.

Nov 22nd
No thanksgiving meal for us on thanksgiving. Bether is gonna come up friday with her boyfriend and the new baby, so we're doing thanksgiving then. Lot's of prep to do though. So I entertain Seton, and mak, and help with getting everything ready for dinner tomorrow. Will comes over after he does his building check, and we all hang out and polish silverware, and set the table, and move furniture, and cook, and fold napkins (i made oragami napkins, they were pretty kewl.)

Nov 23rd
So we're going like mad trying to make sure that everything is perfect for dinner. cooking, cleaning, preparing, and all at the same time, mak and seton are still bored and need constant entertainment. ok, mak is 6, i get it. but come on, do I really have to constantly entertain a 19 year old too? and if seton isn't getting enough attention, then she feigns illness. this is already getting old. Oh well, what can you do? So Will comes over, and he spends most of the time talking to Gary, which was kind of good, cause ma had me working the whole time. Bether arrives with the baby, and she really is just the cutest thing you've ever seen, so little, i just can't believe it. and Joshi is there, (JR and brenda too of course, and brenda has another baby on the way too!) so dinner was great, and everyone pitched in to clean up, which was great, everyone got along which has never happened any other holiday. Then gary and erika, and bether and Jerry all pile into their trucks and head off to their homes. overall a very good day.

Nov 24th
So ma has to go down to milners to do a little work, couple of hours or so. So I make the mistake of asking if I can take mak over to Wills house and hang out there for a little while, and she can hang out with Seton. Yeah, big mistake. ma gets a little pissy with me, and lays the big "You're never home" guilt trip on me. ok, so forget that idea. I'm back on entertainment duty. So we play video games, and watch movies, and ma gets back and we all go watch a Bee Movie. it was a cute flick. (I still would have prefered some time away with will) He stayed at his house, which i really can't blame him at all. I mean there's only so much i can take, and they're my family.

Nov 25th
So it's pretty much a lazy day, I'm sick of being stuck in this house, and i'm sick of entertainment duty. I just want to leave my house in all actuality. Will is starting to get on me about how he's not getting any of my time. not in a bad way, not mad at me, just missing me. Which i feel the same way. I haven't been able to talk to him for 5 minutes without someone right up my butt. even when i try to go up to my room to talk to him on the phone, someone is walking in. ma has to work at the elks, so will comes over, fixes the door in the basement (it was hung the wrong way, and seton can't get in to the bathroom because there is too much stuff in the way.) so after he fixes the door, mak and seton are whining about it being so boring blah blah blah. so will says we should play video games. i have mario party 5 for the game cube, but only 2 controllers, and mak and seton won't play by themselves. so will decides he will buy us 2 more controllers so all 4 of us can play. i load up the car with the 4 of us, and we headed off to game stop, thinking they would be our best option. they have wireless ones for $25, but i was hoping for just a regular one for like $15 each. so we go to target, no luck, then walmart, they too only have the wireless for $25, but Will says he's had enough, and we'll just get these. we get home, and have no batteries. so i go to CVS. We play one game, and Seton gets a little pissy cause she didn't win. Will takes off cause it's gotten late, and everyone turns in.

Nov 26th. I go to work, and I'm bored out of my mind. I talked to my boss, told her i don't have nearly enough work to do, and begged for more. she turns me over to accounting and tells Brian there to give me work. Brian gives me a project that takes all of 5 minutes to update on a weekly basis. Gee, thanks. so glad you could keep me busy. I tell him i want more, like hours not minutes of work, and he says he'll give me more. we'll see. it's really bad when you have to beg for work to do, and yet you still spend all your work time doing myspace surveys. So i get home, cook dinner, play with makie a bit, and actually have a somewhat relaxing evening.

Nov 27th
So today, still bored at work. i was finished with both of my payrolls before 8. Earlene asks if Brian gave me anything to do and i told her that it was one little report that will take 5 minutes to do. so she gives me a project that will keep me busy for a bit. I get to stuff envelopes. woo hoo. I'm so glad this job challenges my intellect, lol. So makie has ballet tonight, so I'll get an hour to talk to Will without anyone else listening in, which will be good. then tomorrow is "mom night" which i would rather spend with Will, i mean i have been with my mother every day this week. although i've been with will a majority of it too, but it's different. Oh and will was talking to me last night, I guess my ma pissed him off a bit, cause she was talking on friday when all the babies were around that if will and i had a baby, it would be really tall and stuff. guess he didn't really appreciate that. idk how to feel about that either. should i feel hurt that the idea of having a baby with me makes him upset? or is it just that this has been a really stressful week, and how is he supposed to respond to my mother when we've been dating 7 months, and she's talking about us having babies, but at the same time, i can't go see him cause i'm never at home. i don't know. ok, i guess i'll go stuff some envelopes, and stop ranting.

busy halloween

Yesterday was an insanely busy day. I had a few problems at work that took my whole day to fix, then I left work, went to pick up mak, and only had like 2 minutes before the bell rang. I am very nervous about being late. I always show up for things 15 minutes before i need to, so showing up to school with only two minutes to spare really bothers me. I pick her up and we went to the learning tree. This will be her new daycare, because the one that she was at is a total POS! Scott picked it out for convenience and cost. Well, some things you get what you pay for. Any one could just walk in off the street into the building, and while I am aware that I am slightly paranoid, anyone with a child in todays society will agree that there have been way too many news stories about people and daycares. Also, they sent us home a nasty letter saying that they weren't aware of something Scott was supposed to have delt with, anyway, they suck, and she's now going to the learning tree. So I went there with mak to finalize the paperwork and give them money. They don't take credit cards, ok, so I go to the bank, grab $120.00 for them for the week and registration (she only goes after school for 2 days) then we went home. Had to get her homework done before her dad picks her up. She complains that he never makes time for her to have her homework and 20 minutes of reading, so on wednesdays i like to get that done with her so that she has time. Had to write a letter to school stating her new bus route and everything. by then, her dad was there. I had to talk to him (which I hate doing!) and explain all the new policies and procedures with the new daycare, and figure out the money situation for that, then out the door heading to Wills. By now i am totally wound up and stressed, just from having such a busy day.

I call Will to see if there is a better way to get to his house cause the free way is all backed up, he doesn't answer. Ok, so I call my girlfriend Nae to chat with her, cause it seems like I never have any time for her anymore. She also doesn't answer. Ok. So i'm driving in horrible rush hour traffic, and will had told me earlier that he wants me at his house as soon as possible so that we could have a few minutes alone before his ma showed up. He calls back while i'm still on the road, and we chat for a bit. He tells me that his ma is at big lots around the corner from his house, so we won't be able to have any alone time after all, so he's all bummed about that, and I was too. so then he wants to know what I wanna do for food. at this point all I wanna do is stop driving! so he asks me to stop and get a pizza. ok, will he call it in? No, he doesn't like having to call. Fine! So he at least gives me a numer for hungry howies by his house, and i'm still 15 minutes away, so i'll be driving by it at the right time anyway. So i call, having no idea what to order. I get 2 large pizzas and cheeser bread. $30 and 45-60 minutes. What! that's insane! well what else can I do? i guess no one wanted to cook last night.

So I finally get to wills house, and his ma still isn't there. So we take advantage of the time we have alone. that made me feel better. then his ma gets there, and we sit around talking for a bit, waiting for the trick or treaters to show up. I'm all excited, cause they are so cute, and blah blah blah. Will even bought a case of regular size snicker bars to give away. then I go get the pizza, come home and eat. we pop in some tales from the crypt season 4 (not the best season at all, they were pretty lame.) we sat around talking with his ma until about 830 or so. I felt kind of bad for him, cause she kept saying how much nicer and bigger and better her house was compaired to his. I mean, that's a bit rude, isn't it? she must have said it at least a half dozen times. grrr. idk, so then we went to bed.

When I got up this morning, she was walking out the door as my alarm was going off at 530. didn't even say hello. idk, he said that she said she liked me the last time they were together, so i'll just not freak out about that. last night I was way too tired and stressed to even spend any energy on what she thought about me, which is really odd, cause I usually really freak out about things like that. Maybe because we were at his house instead of something more formal likke going out to dinner, or maybe just because I was whipped. regardless, it all ended up being ok. except for the lack of trick or treaters, which i was really bummed about. not a single kid. grrrr.