I'm being a little pushy, I know

So I gave Will his watch, and he liked it. Not quite the wow factor that I was hoping for, but he's not a really excitable person. So Friday we went to dinner with ma, Mak, Will, JR, Brenda, and Yoshi. It was very nice. Then Saturday, i finished up a project for ma that she needed my help on, then makie and I went over to Wills. I took him out to Buka di Beppo's for his bday dinner. we went back to his house, played a few games of this new board game makie got for her bday, pictureeka. it was pretty fun, we all enjoyed it. then we rented a movie, evan almighty. we went to bed. then on sunday, we went up to wills gram's house and visited with her and his aunt. in the car on the way back i was looking at vegas brochures, and read an artical that said in vegas to get married all you need is a valid drivers license, and $55 to get a marriage license. he said maybe if it was a year later he would think about it, but not now. back to his house, and we ended up spending the night again.

this morning i woke up at like 330, and decided that he should wake up too! so after waking him up in a very nice way, we were laying there talking while i was waiting for my alarm to go off. he was talking about how things would work out "theoretically" if we were to get married. about taking makie to school in the morning, and it being such a drive and all. what an inconvenience, and if we would really get any more time together, and what would my mother think, and if she would bitch about getting less time with me, and finances, and the moeny it would take to get a ring, and then pay for a wedding. he said that it isn't that he's not sure about me, it's all the other factors that go along with me. he said he's 90% certain that he wants to marry me. but is that really enough? i told him i'm 150% sure, and he laughed and said that i guess that makes up for his 10% of doubts. I told him about when i was looking for his watch at zales, being a girl and all, I went and looked at the engagement rings, and told him about the one that i like, and told him it was on sale right now, lol. he said that's great, no pressure. but he was laughing about it. then he was saying that he might get the rings from when his mom and dad got married.

idk, i mean i lovve it when he talks about us getting married, and it's so very much what i want, but i really want him to want it too, and i don't know how to make him see what i see when i look at us together. i know that it's just gonna take more time, and i really should just leave it alone until he figures it out on his own. the thing is that i think if i left it alone, he would just let things continue this way for a million years. one of the things that is making him think about this on his own though is the fact that he's adamant that we're not gonna live together until we're married. well even he's getting sick of me not being around enough. every day he's complaining more and more about not spending enough time with me, and the funny thing is, the more time i spend with him, the more time i want to spend with him. every other relationship i've ever been in, after a while i just get sick of the guy. the more time i spend with Will though, the more I find myself wanting to spend even more time with him. I swear it's like nothing i've ever experienced. I just can't get enough of him.

Idk, i planted the seeds of though about getting married in vegas, so i guess i'll just have to wait and see what he wants to do. i know i need to be patient, and let him move at his own pace. I'm just so ready, ya know. it's so hard for me to just sit back and let things progress at a snails pace. oh well, things will work out. with a relationship like ours, it's stronger than anything i've ever known. i just hope it's stronger than my impatience, lol.

well, i'm gonna get started on work, hope you all have a good one!